Never Grow up

I have been having a really hard time with my kids growing up and then when my friends child passed away it has been on my mind a lot. The other day when I had my yard sale I even asked my mom why the kids have to grow up...She blankly looked at me and asked me how she felt...Here I am 29, married, with two kids and then ask how she felt about kids growing up! It is also a joke around the house with Cailey...I tell her that she can't grow up anymore! She tells me that she has to get big like her cousin Shelby!

I love Taylor Swift. I think her music definitely hits the spot. This girl that sings her song is wonderful. And since Taylor does not have a video out yet on her song, this girl is going to do. She does sing it really well too!!!

Cayden is 3

I am happy to say we have made it to three years! The terrible twos have been going on for over two years, and I am hoping three is our lucky number!!!

We had a great motorcycle birthday and celebrated with many loved ones!

I was actually able to have a bar-b-que birthday because the weather was so nice. The kids jumped in the jump house, played in the sandbox and just enjoyed each other. The adults stood around and enjoyed good conversations. It was a wonderful night!

The highlights of Cayden's birthday...

Playing with his best buddy...Tucker Brown

Getting a motorcycle cake...Thanks to Dawn Moore (I have her number if anybody wants to order cakes through her she does wonderful work and her prices are great!).

Getting a bunch of new toys...Thanks Aunt Tawnya for getting him a noisy light stick thing...Thank God it broke within a day ;) And you will be getting paybacks!!!!!!

Getting a motorcycle bicycle!  He loved it!!! He has been asking for one for a couple of months. I know it is not much fun getting a bike in the cold, but it will be there for when the days get nicer. That is the breaks of having your birthday in the fall/winter!

Not so good highlights...

Having the "Happy Birthday" song sung to you...He hated it...can't you tell?

and big sister is getting a kick out of it!

Sometimes life is just not fair!!!

There are days that I don't think I can make it through it...


There are days that I would rather be somewhere else then here...


There are days that I think it would be nicer to change lives with someone else...


There are days that you just don't think life could get any worse...


And then it happens...Something happens to somebody else and makes everything you think of seem like nothing!!!

A friend of mine from high school lost her 3 year old today in a tragic accident at home. Something that could happen to any of us at any time and then it does and makes you so thankful that it was not you! Her son, was the same age as Cayden. The accident has hit a big chunk of my heart...all I can think of is that it could be Cayden.

I don't how anybody can cope with a loss of their own child. I don't know what I can say or do for her. My heart aches for her. And then it makes you question...why does this happen to such great people? Why do great people have to suffer?

My heart goes out to her and her wonderful family. And makes me want to snuggle with my little ones and never let go!!!

Cayden's turning 3.....

Birthdays are always hard for me!
I hate my babies growing up!
I have a really hard time with Cailey getting older and now that Cayden is getting easier (talks, potty trained, not as fussy) I am having an extremely difficult time with him getting older! Where does the time go? Three years ago I was in the delivery room not even knowing Cayden was going to be a boy or girl... Two years ago I was thankful that I made it through his first year! (Cayden was a very fussy baby that never slept!) One year ago I was finally getting into a groove of having a baby and a toddler and working and still not getting sleep. Now that three years is here I have fully adapted to being a single parent 4-5 days out of the 7 (Cody working away from home was really rough on us at first, but we are getting use to it!), working, dealing with two kids that love to fight at all times, and still not getting sleep....one day I will get sleep again!!!

I will admit that being Cayden's mommy has been very tiring and at times I really did not think I could make it through it. But now...not a problem. He can talk through his frustrations, I can sleep with him...he sleeps in a queen size bed, so I just get up in the middle of the night and sleep with him...so I am better mommy when I get sleep too!

So here is the top 3 things I love about Cayden:
1. His loving...I will tell Cayden I love him and he says, "No mommy, I love you!"
2. His humor (he is already like his daddy), he likes to joke around. In the morning he will hear me come into his room and he likes to hide his head under the covers and pretend he is not there. He also loves to tell stories that are not true...He told our neighbor that he goes to Cailey's preschool, and learns his ABC's and then went on to say his ABC's...I didn't even know he knew them!!!
3.His sense of adventure....Cayden is truly a boy! He has no fear and lives to be adventures. He loves to ride bikes...In fact, when we go to the Browns' house to play they have a pretty steep driveway...he is going to prove to himself that he can conquer that driveway on a bike...He has yet to crash bad, but I know it is coming! I usually have to run down after him and almost fall over my own feet  trying to catch him. I am sure I give the neighbors a good show!

There are many more things I love about Cayden...but the post would never end!  I love you Cayden!!!!

Cayden as a new born

1 years old

2 years old

3 years old

Cayden quit growing....PLEASE!!!!

Halloween 2010

Two days later and I still feel like I am hanging up side down!!!! Have you ever felt that way after a very long extended "holiday"???

I really do love the day...but this year Halloween lasted a little too long. We dressed up on Wednesday for Cailey's preschool party, on Saturday for trick or treat downtown, and on Sunday for the 'real' trick or treat...This mommy is exhausted! It took a lot for me to get up and go to work on Monday...I even had a harder time waking the kids up to go to the babysitters (Cayden got woke up and thrown in the truck with his jammies still on!).

I think the day after Halloween should be considered a holiday...Especially for mommy's! (Sorry dads! But seriously, Cody is gone every Halloween and I have to do all the work). It should be a day where you get to stay in your jammies all day, eat all the candy your children get, and do nothing at all. Of course that would never work, but darn it, it sure does sound good!!!

So here are my pictures of the festivities. Thank God the weather held up for us! It did make it so much nicer trick or treating on all those days...And when you ask Cailey what her most favorite thing of Halloween was.....Handing out the candy to the other trick or treaters at Aunt Tawnya's house! Goes to show you the kids love easy things....It is us parents that make everything so darn complicated!!!

Aunt Tawnya and the kiddos...they really did not know what to think of her and were kind of scared!

Trying to get Cailey to just look at me!

My cutie of a lion...RRRRRR

He actually asked for his picture by this.

At the Carberry Boo Carnival...I always loved the stick fishing...Cayden did too!

"I promise if you just smile once we will be done and we can go!!!"

Actually posing for me!

Cayden loves his Great Grandma Roma

Cailey's favorite thing to do...passout candy!

This little lion is out!!!but only for a very short time...With no naps during the day, a 3 minute nap in the truck, and running like a wild man you would think he would have slept all night! NOPE...We did not get any sleep at all! And now it is catching up with us later in the week!!!

Hope you all had a great Halloween and the candy God's were good to you. They were actually too good to us and now it is in hiding from the kids and should be in hiding from me! Maybe if I eat it all in one day it will be gone for good and then I won't have to worry about it....hmmmm

Senior Pics...Chace

Boys are totally different than girls...I knew that. But boys are also way harder to photograph than girls.
They don't like to smile and look cute. They would much rather look bad *ss and cool...However, we got the pictures done and I actually think Chace ended up enjoy some of it...

Good luck Chace in everything you are going to do....We love you very much!!!